To read the introduction post to this series.
It's day one of my Birthday Week – Sunday. I didn't want to get out of bed, which is very unusual for me. Normally I pop right out at 5 am. I laid there in twilight zone for a few hours. I just knew it was snowing, I felt the barometer change in the room, even before I looked out the window. March 1 and snow.
Yesterday was an interesting day. I called Angela for a tarot card reading. No answer, no voice mail.
As I sat in my meditation wondering what did I really desire for today the word clutter appeared and then was quickly over-ridden with "letting go of past possibilities."
As I looked around the living room I could see a few places of this evidence…a VHS player connected to the TV I haven't used in a year. Some older books needing to be released from my shelves…gifts for the library or for sale on Amazon for those who desired them. I remembered a time when I mailed these books to clients, colleagues, or gave them to friends or family. Only to learn they never read them anyway. I realized I was just passing on an obligation – negative energy – to them that was mine. I gave it to them out of guilt. Guilt not all the time…just when I didn't read it myself. I realized I was just rationalizing my guilt. Ahhh, that was a revelation for sure. I'm glad I stopped that practice.
I'm going to get my motor moving now, beginning with a shower. The phrase; "promises I haven't kept" is appearing. Maybe water running over me will unravel this story.
Then onto my next research adventure…responding to an ad I saw in the spiritual magazine. It was by "The Listening Point" in Washington DC. They say they can help improve someone's auditory processing for reading and writing. As an avid writer, a great birthday gift for myself is finding a new way to improve my writing abilities. I'll keep you posted as to where this leads—or doesn't.
